I'm at the Seattle international airport at 4 am, and my trip is coming to an end. It wasn't what I thought it would be. I was not successful at summitting Mt. Rainier, but it's ok. I made it far enough, at least that's what I've convinced myself of. I learned a lot about myself in those few days. These are things I should already have known ( at least at my mildly advanced age), but now they're definitive.
1. I no longer want to pursue adrenaline rushing types of activities. No more ice mountain climbing (I will do non technical mountains though), zip-lining, intensive sea kayaking in Great White shark infested waters, etc. I don't have to prove anything anymore.Scaring the living heebee- jeebees out of myself isn't that much fun.
2. I prefer to act as an observer and not as a conqueror. I want to absorb and appreciate what's around me. I saw a cute little marmot on the way up to the ice field, but I didn't have time to take a photo of it or even stop and enjoy his presence. That bothered me tremendously.
3. I am competitive, but not with everything, and that's ok. I'm a competitive birder, photographer, kayaker.
4. I like being alive. I don't need to push my limits in order to appreciate the dwindling years that remain.
5. I need to do more yoga. Seriously.
6. I push myself to achieve things because even if I make it only half way, it's further than I otherwise would've gotten. If I shoot for the stars and only make it to the moon, well, hell, I made it to the moon!
7. I don't know where I'm going or what I'm going to accomplish, but goals are good, no matter how seemingly minor they are. They keep me focused. I'm in better physical shape now than I've been since I was 18 years old simply because I had a goal.
8. Going up a mountain is 50 times easier than going down. Up just requires physical stamina. Down requires that you reach into your gut, grab on, and convince yourself every moment that you must do this. Up is optional. There is no choice when going down.
So, there we have it. Lessons learned. Let's just hope I remember them. It really was worth it because I got to eat all sorts of yummy food this week.
I've got my priorities in order.